Thinking leads to more thinking.

Hmm, so today I couldn't go to school due to the fact that I have a stye on my good eye, my other eye has amploydia so i can barely see. When I woke up, I had a hard time seeing anything, so I informed my parents that I wasn't going to school, because I didn't want it to get worst. If it does, I can be nearly blind for life. Soo yeah, I slept 'till 9ish. When I woke up, I had to apply a warm, damp towel. I did that for about 2 hours. When you're lying in your bed, can't use the comp, can't watch t.v., can't even read a book, you have to resort to thinking; about those things that you have been strategically manauevering away from for awhile now. And what have I came up with? I'm quite indecisive. I don't know what I want. I have to make little deals to force myself into doing something. Why? Cause I don't know what I want. Also, I notice that I worry to much about other people. Yeah, a lot of people would agree that it's a good thing. But if I spent all my time caring about other people, who's going to care about me? I have to spend a little less of my time worrying, and do things that I want to do. Maybe that's why i'm indecisive? Because I always put my thoughts aside for other's since I feel like i'm disappointing them. Of course I won't completely be close-minded and be a stubborn asshole that will always make it go my way, but perhaps only taking a little iniatitive of my own will not allow people to push me over. I am sorry if I disappoint you dear reader, but please give me a break once in awhile. My eye is irritating again, I'm going to apply another warm-towel.