Monday, October 19, 2009

Today, I had an Odd # hours of sleep

Can't believe i'm going through these same feelings again. Two times in one year, already?. It makes me feel like shit. I lack confidence. I guess its inevitable. I want to stick around, but I don't want to get to close, or i'd get hurt; again. Life's being a bitch. Taking away my happiness? Why. I guess I don't deserve it. I guess the only thing I can look forward to now is Preseason for tennis. I'm going to loose the deal with Cynthia. It was suppose to make me get the balls to do what i needed to do, but how can I? I don't know what she is thinking. ever. And that wondering makes me think about her more. But I have to forget, cause thats how I roll. I dont want to get hurt again...

Thanks Thomas and Samir for trying to encourage me thoughh (: Too bad nothing's going to happen.

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